Why I want to change my life

I am a person that has a brain that can´t stop thinking of problems of different sorts and trying to find solutions for them. The greatest problem thus far has been that I have not been able to find the solution of my inability to take action.

I know that I have a lot of ideas that I want to try out and see if they work. Most of them will benefit other people and it would be truly fulfilling to me IF they prove to work.
I believe that they would greatly improve the lives of many by generating work and income possibilities for the communities affected. Nature as well will be positively affected and will become less polluted and the environment would be improved.

But what do I want?

I want to feel appreciated and truly useful. I want to feel that I accomplish something of great value. I also want to have the funds to be able to test my ideas and create a better future for people.

Right now I don´t have this.

I get my paycheck at the end of the month, and it is enough to pay the bill and so on. Not much of appreciation and not really anything left behind to prove your existence when you leave.
You know the drill.

And don´t misunderstand me here, I feel appreciated by my family and friends.

But I also want to be appreciated by people who don´t really know me but who will see what I do and contribute with to society and community. And as a consequence appreciate me for that.

Maby there are many others out there that are somewhat like me. Going thru life by going to work in the morning spending most of the awake hours changing their time for a “welfare check” at the end of the month.

For 26 years I have done this. Autopiloting thru life, reinventing myself over and over again just to feel alive for a little while during my new “learning phase”.

I feel the life slipping thru my fingers, my body aches, my fitness deteriorates and I feel that I will not have a great financial situation when it is time for me to retire.

That is not what I want anymore! It is enough!

I need to do something about it.

And now I have found what I need to be able to get myself to take action.